Clow Card: The Fly

I picked a Clow Card: The Fly

The Fly (Reverse):  Confusion, carefulness, caring.  Look out above.

Just as I was thinking of you leaving me

There comes hope from this card that I picked

The Fly. It’s reversed. Well, what can I say,

Of course I thought you’ll never fly away

But if it is true

Why don’t you still come to rescue me

From this abyss of loneliness

From this cage of emptiness

Will the future be so far still

Will it not take effect so suddenly?

Can the card be wrong

Or I interpreted it incorrectly?

Confusion.

That is what is left when you said goodbye to me.

The point is that you did not leave me immediately.

You cared to still linger around

Finding me, searching still for my company

After you said goodbye to me.

Carefulness.

That is what I wanted for you to show me.

Didn’t you realize I am hurting badly.

Your presence makes me high, your presence makes me low

So please be careful with me, understand my anxiety

After you said goodbye to me, you could have been more

Caring.

So is the card lying?

Have I just construed it according to my liking?

Do I need now to look out above?

So I might get my hands ready

In case you change your mind

And you come flying toward me.

You Are Confusing Me

It started with goodbye
You look at me straight in the eye
There’s nothing stopping you
You’re going for your dreams
And I’m not in those…
I pleaded let me wait
I’ll change you’ll see, our dreams will all come true
‘Cause hey, we’ve come so far
I’m not going to lose you.
But it appears you’ve made up your mind
You’re gonna leave me behind.
So baby stop calling me
I thought you wanna be free
I want to be alone, I’d rather turn off my phone
‘Cause I can’t resist to answer
And still come when you asked me to…
I pleaded let me wait
I’ll change you’ll see, our dreams will all come true
‘Cause hey, we’ve come so far
I’m not going to lose you.
But it appears you’ve made up your mind
You’re gonna leave me behind.
Leave me now, if you must
You are confusing me
Goodbyes are endings, can’t you see
I still love you, can’t you feel
I pleaded let me wait
I’ll change you’ll see, our dreams will all come true
‘Cause hey, we’ve come so far
I’m not going to lose you.
But it appears you’ve made up your mind
You’re gonna leave me behind.
You’re gonna leave me behind.
You’re gonna leave me behind.

Numb

I’d like to stop thinking about you
About how you look at me saying,
“have I already told you I love you?”
I’d like to change my memories of you
Especially when you kiss the back of my hand
Seems like I still feel your lips touch mine
With every dream at night,
Your voice resounds in my head
When you told me “I’ll marry you”
Yes, I still hear you raging mad at me
Calling me angel, your only fantasy
Yes, I still feel you touching my face
As we kiss so tenderly
Yes, I still miss you so badly
Yes, I want to be numb ’cause it’s painful
When I still hear and feel you
Yes, I want to be numb ’cause it’s painful
To hear you say “goodbye”.