Clow Card: The Fly

I picked a Clow Card: The Fly

The Fly (Reverse):  Confusion, carefulness, caring.  Look out above.

Just as I was thinking of you leaving me

There comes hope from this card that I picked

The Fly. It’s reversed. Well, what can I say,

Of course I thought you’ll never fly away

But if it is true

Why don’t you still come to rescue me

From this abyss of loneliness

From this cage of emptiness

Will the future be so far still

Will it not take effect so suddenly?

Can the card be wrong

Or I interpreted it incorrectly?

Confusion.

That is what is left when you said goodbye to me.

The point is that you did not leave me immediately.

You cared to still linger around

Finding me, searching still for my company

After you said goodbye to me.

Carefulness.

That is what I wanted for you to show me.

Didn’t you realize I am hurting badly.

Your presence makes me high, your presence makes me low

So please be careful with me, understand my anxiety

After you said goodbye to me, you could have been more

Caring.

So is the card lying?

Have I just construed it according to my liking?

Do I need now to look out above?

So I might get my hands ready

In case you change your mind

And you come flying toward me.