Paglipad

Ako ngayon ay lumilipad

Tumatagos sa malalambot na ulap

Tanaw ang sulok ng ating kalawakan

Kasabay ng mga ibong

Humuhuni ng pagsulong

Tungo sa bagong lugar na kanilang titirhan.

Pumapaimbabaw sa bahaghari

At nagpapadulas sa kabilang bahagi

Hinahamon ang pitong kulay

Pagkat kahit maging walo pa sila

Isang libo't higit pa ang tinataglay ng aking buhay.

Nagpapatangay sa hangin

Mula sa kung saan ay umiihip

Nakikinig sa ibinubulong nitong

Halakhak ng maraming tao

At sinasagot ko ito ng isang malaking ngiti

Sapagkat hindi kayang dalhin ng hangin

Ang sarili kong halakhak na ubod ng dami.

Angel Beats!

When I first tried to watch this anime, I got a little confused on the purpose of their battlefront against a little high school girl Yurippe dubbed as tenshin or angel. It was also a bit disturbing especially during the first few episodes at how the characters look at hurling a giant scythe at each other as just another past time. I thought, 'I watched several animes featuring sword piercing, limbs breaking, eyes being gouged out but never in such a 'nothing-really-serious' a mood as presented in Angel Beats! XD' From then on, I postponed watching this anime.

After my friend explained to me why they are fighting Tenshin, who would only be Kanade in later episodes, and after a couple of 'Dali, panoorin mo na 'yung Angel Beats! Tapusin mo na. :D (Come on, finish watching Angel Beats!. :D)'  from my boyfriend, I finally got around to finishing this wonderfully crafted anime. :D And I was like, 'Why did I ever give up on this anime? Tsk.'  It is so hilarious and so profound. :D

Haven't we all wanted to live our lives without any regrets, without any dreams unfulfilled before meeting our deaths? Unfortunately, the characters in this story all died full of regrets, wishes that weren't granted, dreams that remained just dreams.  For them, life is just unfair. Hence, they all died without peace.

Fortunately after dying, they were all sent into a world where they all have chances of getting whatever they missed out of their lives. However, most of them fail to understand why they were there and so constantly rebelled and fought against what they actually truly wanted in the first place.

It sends to us a message that just because you didn't get what you wanted, you have to fight against whatever forces which prevented you from getting it. Because a bigger picture may reveal that everything is just as you wanted it to be - peaceful and happy. :D

Dreams

And I curled up on bed

Finding warmth from soft dreams

Playing sweetly in my head

An Angel's Ink

I wish I could say that this is a sneak-peak of my upcoming book featuring all the poems I've written.

Haha. Napakaambisyosa ko. Ang totoo, sa Microsoft Publisher ko lang ginagawa, at hindi ko matutukan dahil sa kakulangan ng panahon. At 'yung anghel sa taas, ang kaisa-isa pa lang na illustration na nagawa ko. Anghel, kasi, balak kong bigyan ng title na - An Angel's Ink. :)  Sana matapos ko kahit gaano pa katagal.

..Promises..

In general, we like to give promises..
And whether we accept it or not, we like to hear someone promise that things will be like the ones we hope them to be..
But these promises often break..
Then the next time you hear another promise, you take it as another false hope..
Sooner or later, you proved you’re right..
And so false hopes pile up..
And then you ask..
What is better..
..saying that things will come out better, saying versions of ‘don’t-worry-i’ll-be-here-forever’ lines.. ?
..or just being with someone you care not to lose..
..seeing yourselves happy together without any expectations of what each other is supposed to do..
..feeling contented with each others presence..
..and even if no words come out from anyone of you, you feel your dreams come true...

You Are Confusing Me

It started with goodbye
You look at me straight in the eye
There’s nothing stopping you
You’re going for your dreams
And I’m not in those…
I pleaded let me wait
I’ll change you’ll see, our dreams will all come true
‘Cause hey, we’ve come so far
I’m not going to lose you.
But it appears you’ve made up your mind
You’re gonna leave me behind.
So baby stop calling me
I thought you wanna be free
I want to be alone, I’d rather turn off my phone
‘Cause I can’t resist to answer
And still come when you asked me to…
I pleaded let me wait
I’ll change you’ll see, our dreams will all come true
‘Cause hey, we’ve come so far
I’m not going to lose you.
But it appears you’ve made up your mind
You’re gonna leave me behind.
Leave me now, if you must
You are confusing me
Goodbyes are endings, can’t you see
I still love you, can’t you feel
I pleaded let me wait
I’ll change you’ll see, our dreams will all come true
‘Cause hey, we’ve come so far
I’m not going to lose you.
But it appears you’ve made up your mind
You’re gonna leave me behind.
You’re gonna leave me behind.
You’re gonna leave me behind.

Rooftop

It was the first since the last
A month ago barely made me move
The same tune I sing
It goes like, baby, I still love you
Now you are beside me
Curled up and sleeping
It makes me want to kiss you
And whisper, baby, I still love you
Your calm, gentle touch
The smile I so miss
A perfect beside me, you make me lose my breath
Ironic, for you are my life
Then we went to the rooftop
Against the wind you brought me
Along with your dreams
You see the landscape, wide and big
I see the great height, I’m afraid to fall even more
‘Cause I know you can’t catch me
Baby, you’re leaving me…
I tried to look up
Saw the big clouds
You were so happy
And said they look sweet
You’re really heading up
Flying high to your dreams
Now you are beside me
Soon I’ll be lonely
I don’t know why I’m still here
Don’t give me hints you still love me..

Numb

I’d like to stop thinking about you
About how you look at me saying,
“have I already told you I love you?”
I’d like to change my memories of you
Especially when you kiss the back of my hand
Seems like I still feel your lips touch mine
With every dream at night,
Your voice resounds in my head
When you told me “I’ll marry you”
Yes, I still hear you raging mad at me
Calling me angel, your only fantasy
Yes, I still feel you touching my face
As we kiss so tenderly
Yes, I still miss you so badly
Yes, I want to be numb ’cause it’s painful
When I still hear and feel you
Yes, I want to be numb ’cause it’s painful
To hear you say “goodbye”.

I Dream

At my side, I always seek you

I always think I saw you

These corners of my eyes are such sweet fools!

My imagination insists itself as truths!

I dream big happiness for our tomorrow

That we each find ways to cure each passing day’s sorrow

With silent tenderness of our smiles

Before we lay at night, before we close our eyes

I dream big hope for our tomorrow

But with such simplicity as that of a sunflower

Which faces the sun amidst cold air

May we do the same as we build our lair

I dream big faith and trust for our tomorrow

That though at times we must separate as we go

We find two rivers, shallow as they are, must flow

Toward one deep ocean, and that, we always know

I dream true love to embrace us

That we do all ways to make each other feel this power

In our delicate actions

In our words that draw inspirations

I love you.